Breakfast, Lunch, and Dinner

We are what we eat!

for me that must mean I am oober sweet

because sweets are just about all I eat

gasp! I know! It's sadly no joke!

I have an eating disorder

I'm not anorexic or anything like that

in fact I love me body

and why shouldn't I

but still I don't eat

I've never talked about this on my blog before

I guess it's half embarrassment half denial

it's not easy admitting you have a problem

especially to yourself

my issue is that I don't craze food

I assume most of you are rolling your eyes

and saying you wish you had that problem

but I'm not healthy... and I'm not happy

I'm not happy when woman compare themselves to me

I want to shake them and tell them that they are beautiful

and that I'm not normal and I'm not healthy

Please do not wish to be me!

It's not all days... but most days I have to force myself to eat

I have to make a conscience decision to open the fridge

what is worse is that when I do eat I eat JUNK

Oreo's to be specific

I also have major jaw issues

at times I have had so much jaw pain on month at end

that I would just start crying in the middle of everyday events

luckily I found acupuncture - OM Thank you G :)

but I think because of the years of struggling through the pain

I developed this distaste for eating

it hurt - and just wasn't worth it

I still have to be careful about what I eat

but I've got to develop healthy eating habits

My grandfather is trying to help

I'm suppose to write down everything I eat

and try - No - I must eat three solid meals a day

I'm not doing very well :(

Breakfast is the hardest, my Oreo cravings are the strongest then

plus eggs are not much of my friend

I'm also lifting weights every other day

and well I've not been to consistent with that either

ok just writing all this down has drained me

I'm curious how you have worked through bad, unhealthy habits,

addictions, or any other such thing that took lot of will power

because right now I'm needing to change my attitude

and it's not easy!!!

~ Chelsea Ann

Shopkeeper

I've always wanted to own by own boutique

growing up in a small town I couldn't have really understood the term

but the vision was always clear in my head

when I step into a small shop I instantly feel at home.

Sometimes I loose myself in a dream

when an abandon shop-front sits lonely across the street from me

of coarse in this economic blah blah blah that we find ourselves in

my dream seems lost and well quite frank - silly

Image from Flickr member zozma*

I don't know what's in-store for my future

but right now I am unemployed, broke as a joke

and actually quite happy

but life demands money does it not

oh good grief does it!

Moving to the middle of nowhere has made finding a job

TERRIFYING and well in my mind hopeless

I think it is all rather more in my head

plus the idea of working for minimum wage makes me want to die inside

not that I feel I am too good for it

but honestly I don't much care for "working" in general

and I have a college degree for goodness sakes

well anywho

I have a short period of time to prove to myself and my hubby

that I can make a few extra $$$ without leaving the house

I know it's crazy

but honestly if you lived out here

you might never want to leave either :)

plus not leaving the house means not spending $$$

ha except gosh dang electricity bills are not pleasant on the eyes

I've got to cut down on my showers and such

lol and my darling vintage fridge my hubby got me

was probably not the smartest move

for both the green movement or the green in our wallets

So what is my plan?

Sell, Sale, Sell, Sale

I never can tell which spelling is correct

have I told you before I have major issues with the english language

well that is a topic for an entirely different post

For the next few months I can not be gloomy

I can not NOT not doubt myself

I can do this! I can! I CAN!

My shop has always been more of a hobby

but now it's my lively hood!

So look out world - my little blogging world -

this gal might just start sounding like a used car salesman

So you know how my shop sidebar button

has the

PRINT SHOP

THRIFT SHOP

& GIFT SHOP

?

Well I'm finally dragging out all the items

I was always intending to list

like this sweet retro baby mobile

so there you have it - Thrift Shop!

I hope you all wont mind me sharing

what I'm posting in my shop from time to time

No pressure sales or anything

it's just that I'm passionate about what I put in my shop

from the vintage finds to my homemade sweets

plus for now on it's what I'll be spending the majority of my time doing

I'm sure to have arthritis one day from all the fabric yoyos

just a few of the headbands I listed yesterday :)

Hope you are having a great week!

Any fun plans for this weekend?

I'm quite anxious about this weekend

you see my little brother is fast on his way to winning

a CHAMPIONSHIP!

Two more races to go -

one this weekend

and the last in Salt Lake City - May 1st

Jim and I are going to see him there

I'll be sure to post about it more soon!

I have knots in my stomach just thinking about it

I can't even imagine the pressure and excitement

he must be going through!

HUGS!!! ~ Chelsea Ann

Little Buckaroo Baby Shower

It's just my luck that the post office comes out with cowboy stamps

just a few weeks after I post the invites to my little sisters

cowboy themed baby shower

I LOVE planning parties

especially coming up with unique personal touches on a budget

yeah- something about being strapped for cash really inspires me

The invites turned out super cute and unique and were really cheap!

I used a bandana Martha Stewart 6 x 6 paper pad

from Walmart - 36 for just $6

I folded them in half and then glued my custom invite in the inside

no need for envelops!!

just close with a round clear sticker and attach address on a white mailing label

The cowboy birds I scanned in from a card

Diane of Saturday Finds was so kind to send me

and the background is from a digi kit from A Print A Day

I can't find it in her shop... she may have discontinued it?

It's hard to decorate a giant space

wallpapered and covered in every other material

entirely in maroon and forest green

but I did my best :)

You got to love after holiday sales

easter grass, buckets, and pinwheels

all at 50% off!

It was a really special day

Jordy was just glowing

she's gone a long way from calling the baby "it"

to calling me to discuss baby powder, brands of diaper, the the nursery

One thing I would like to help her get is a vinyl decal for the nursery

I like these choices from etsy venders

(click on images for sources)

I'm so excited to meet my nephew!

Jordy is going to be a great momma

and while I can't stop being jealous

I'm excited to be an aunt

and hopefully my own blessing will come along

and we can raise our children together

I never had cousins my own age

I think that would be rather special

for both the kids and for us sisters

but as I have shared before pregnancy doesn't seem to be in the books for me

at-least right now - Jim and I are looking into becoming foster parents

I'm nervous, anxious and excited about the idea

I know it will be hard... but I know it will have rewards

for Jim and I and for the children we welcome into our home

The First Chapter

In a manner of 10 days

my little world was turned upside down

from life in the "big" city of Portland, Oregon to life on 30 acres

we moved from Portland to 45 minutes outside of Boise, Idaho

These pictures were taken Easter Day

on our own property that we are currently renting

it's so beautiful out here

and just as I remember Idaho as a child

rain, or snow the sun always comes out and shows it's happy face

and my depression has not been an issue in the least

perhaps its simply because of all the excitement

but I really HATED the rain!

My hubby and I agree that we never belonged in the city

living out here has its cons

such as the commute, slow internet,

and missing my friends and my mom and dad

but there is such a peace in my heart

and with my husband so often on the road

I feel so much safer out here

watching birds and critters from my window

and all the sounds and smells of country life

the earth changing with the seasons

and small town friendly folks.

all these things make me feel so much more alive

than I ever felt living in the city

I'm not a poetic person

I don't have the words to express myself fully

but I do believe that we all have a place

somewhere we all belong

and for many of us we don't get the chance to call those places our home

I feel so blessed that we were able to make this move

I think it will be a place that both myself and my husband

will be very happy here :)

Jim and I have not had a picture taken together in quiet a long time

I have to thank my dad for giving me a tripod for my camera :)

but then suddenly my camera - my new camera

stopped working!!!!!

so I can no longer share what i've been up to

but no worries...

hubby has taken the camera into the camera gods/doctor

anywho...

I forgot to mention how much the puppies are loving the move

and who can blame them

life in the rainy city with not much of a yard, no grass, and lazy me

oh and I have a white picket fence!

I know this place is my own personal piece of heaven :)

Marianne is loving it here to

and she had an extra special first Easter

she got a sweet little bunny

who she named Flopsy

and a new easter dress

it was a rather perfect day!!!

Easter Fashion For The Whole Family

(click on image for source)

You gals are just the best blogg'n gal pals!

Your comments on my last post

were so sweet!

I love to hear about your lives...

sometimes it's easy to get wrapped up in my own

but what I really love about blogging

is the interaction between friends

~

I'm looking forward to Easter dinner,

the day after sale on Easter goodies

and dressing up - of coarse :)

~

The little bunny basket goes to

Sheila :)

~

one more design challenge to go

for the Lollishops Spring Design Team

so don't fret if you didn't win this time

~

sorry I'm at a bit of a loss of what to say today

I'm off to make my honey bunny a peanut butter pie

HAPPY EASTER!!!!