Embry & O

So last week Jenny and Aaron challenged us to work with a specific theme in mind.
For the last few weeks I've let my emotions dictate my journal entries,
and I was sick and tired of them going all dark and gloomy on me,
So having one subject in mind really helped me to stay focused on how I wanted my 
page to look rather than just feel.

We will find out Monday if any MAGIC happened!!!!
We were told we would most likely not have any embryos left for freezing
which was hard to swallow because that meant that all our hopes and dreams were
wrapped up in this one transfer. But luckily the other two smaller guys
(in the picture below)
survived to the freezing process!
I can't even begin to tell you what a relief that news was,
 but I'm still terribly anxious,
I just want this SO bad that I can't imagine 
finding the courage and positive spirit to keep trying. 
But of coarse I will have to...
We have the best neighbors in the whole wide world,
and earlier this week the gal told me how she dedicated her prays each
morning to my little Henry and Annalea.
I was so touched that she had latched onto the names
my husband and I have always wanted for our future children.
Henry came to us maybe two years ago,
but Annalea has been our chosen girl name for almost 9 years.
These two names may seem like just dreams,
but to me they are little souls just waiting to come into our lives. 
They are real to me, and I ache that they can't be with us
and that their coming into this world has been so difficult.
I hope we will not have to wait long,

I've learned so much, and I've certainly gained a new passion
 that without their encouragement and amazing how-to's  
I may have never pursued on my own!

Live the Questions

I came across a quote today by Rainer Maria Rilke

“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart 
and try to love the questions themselves, 
like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue.
 Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you 
because you would not be able to live them. 
And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. 
Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, 
live along some distant day into the answer.” 

Arn't they such comforting words?!
Tomorrow is the BIG day
and my emotions are EVERYWHERE.
I need to allow myself to experience all my emotions
but not get stuck on any one conclusion.
I believe there has to a happy ending for us
I just don't know when or how it will all work out. 

I'm not looking forward to the next 3 days stuck in bed
(yes my husband is insisting I stay put for 3 whole days)
but I am excited about the online drawing workshop
I signed up for that starts this Saturday, September 15th
I just can't wait to see what I can take away from Tascha.
Maybe I'll see some of you there? :) 

Thanks again for all your continual love, support, and prayers. 

Sulky Sue

Well it's Thursday afternoon and my poor tummy is and has been
grumpy for the last 3 days straight. 
The nurse thought I may have caught the flu bug
but I didn't feel like that was it,
and after todays ultrasound
I feel confident that my little body is just having growing pains.
In just one weeks time my body has changed so much
that not one pair of pants fit.
And on an even more ridiculous note, 
I purchased 10 new pretty bloomers last week 
and not even one pair fits! And of-coarse I threw out my tags and recite! 
It's not that I mind gaining weight, but come on - 1 week!
Of coarse if all this leads to a baby bump a few extra pounds now isn't 
going to make a bit of difference in the long run.
But when your hormones are raging 
feeling "fat" doesn't really bring out the best in you.
But the good news is I'm ahead of schedule for my 
"harvest" so if all my levels stay the same we will be 
in this weekend for retrieval, which means next weekend
I'll be a couch potato taking it easy and praying for a little miracle.

I'm SO glad I decided to make the time for Art Journaling
with Aaron and Jenny of Everyday is a Holiday.
I've truly found this little project to be extremely therapeutic! 
I had a few self pitying "Sulky Sue" days this week
but each time I grabbed my journal 
and let my emotions spill out onto the pages.
Jenny and Aaron will be catching up with this weeks class
this Sunday due to a power outage they experienced this week.
Can't wait to see what the emotions of that experience
 contributed to their own journals. 

If your a digi scrapper please give some love to these gals!
It's aways thrilling to see my digi elements and papers incorporated into 
scrapbook pages and crafters projects by the Kitschy Digitals Creative team

1. Karli Plant of Retro Plant /Qtea Party Digi Kit
2. Randi O'dell /Once Upon A Gypsy Digi Kit
3. Anna Bäckström of Allt Och Ingenting (Everything and Nothing)

And here are some lovely hybrid projects that I just can't get enough of!

1. Marie Lottermoser of Stitch in Time 
2. & 3. Maybemej Sporrong of Maybemej Photography

Using papers and elements from my digi kit

Still trying to figure out what theme to run with this month -
feel free share if you have a fun idea you'd like to come to life.
Was thinking of maybe making another halloween kit,
as I had so much fun with my Sweet and Sinister Affair kit I released last month. 

Well I need to go find a comfy place to rest,
this belly ache of mine is not being friendly at the moment :(
So SO So glad (and anxious) to be approaching the finish line with all the IVF stuff!