Embry & O

So last week Jenny and Aaron challenged us to work with a specific theme in mind.

For the last few weeks I've let my emotions dictate my journal entries,

and I was sick and tired of them going all dark and gloomy on me,

So having one subject in mind really helped me to stay focused on how I wanted my 

page to look rather than just feel.

We will find out Monday if any MAGIC happened!!!!

We were told we would most likely not have any embryos left for freezing

which was hard to swallow because that meant that all our hopes and dreams were

wrapped up in this one transfer. But luckily the other two smaller guys

(in the picture below)

survived to the freezing process!

I can't even begin to tell you what a relief that news was,

 but I'm still terribly anxious,

I just want this SO bad that I can't imagine 

finding the courage and positive spirit to keep trying. 

But of coarse I will have to...

We have the best neighbors in the whole wide world,

and earlier this week the gal told me how she dedicated her prays each

morning to my little Henry and Annalea.

I was so touched that she had latched onto the names

my husband and I have always wanted for our future children.

Henry came to us maybe two years ago,

but Annalea has been our chosen girl name for almost 9 years.

These two names may seem like just dreams,

but to me they are little souls just waiting to come into our lives. 

They are real to me, and I ache that they can't be with us

and that their coming into this world has been so difficult.

I hope we will not have to wait long,

Don't forget to check out Jenny and Aaron's weekly journaling class.

I've learned so much, and I've certainly gained a new passion

 that without their encouragement and amazing how-to's  

I may have never pursued on my own!