Wishful Thinking

For those of you who have followed my blog over the years,

you know that I have suffered from infertility. 

My blog has been a testament of my hopes and dreams

and over the years my coming to terms that maybe a baby 

just wasn't in the cards for us. 

Having children in our home through fostering has certainly

helped feel the void, but I've never given up hope.

We are still hoping - don't get too excited...

but I recently had a laparoscopic surgery to remove my endometriosis

which I have suffered with for the last 10 years.

Going into surgery my biggest fear was that they wouldn't find anything,

and that I was just weak and needed to buck up.

Well they actually found a lot!!!

What was suppose to be a quick recover took over a week,

with an estimated 3-6 month to a full recovery.

So where does that put us now?

Back in baby dreaming mode!!!

This is both exciting and tremendously scary for me. 

I'm terrified of re-entering that dark place that consumed me for over 2 years,

and that I fought so hard to dig my way out of. 

As an anxious person it's not easy to just 

"not think about it"

but I'm doing my best to concentrate on my recovery,

count my blessings that I may possibly be much healthier going forward,

and love on the kiddos who I'm blessed to have in my life now. 

  

So in the pursuit of wishful thinking

I am once again working on a baby nursery.

(Our nursery in our home in Portland)

Luckily this time around I'm not getting to entirely ahead of myself,

as this room is and will continue to be a room for our foster kiddos as well.

While the room across the hall is most defiantly for girls only,

I wanted this room to be gender neutral. 

I purchased an original vintage poster from the Disney classic

Winnie the Pooh and Tigger Too

to serve as the inspiration for the room.

This week we had a custom log loft and twin bed installed in the room

- created by Unique Western Woodworks of Eagle, Idaho.

Aaron of Unique Western Woodworks also designed and built 

our king four poster canopy bed for our new master bedroom.

Of coarse Miller dog had to be the first one to test out the new bed. 

We were hoping he wouldn't be able to jump up this high -

but no such luck. 

At-least our new life in a king size been allows everyone (dogs included)

to stretch out and get a good nights rest. 

So the plan now is to start painting, 

I want most of the walls to be a warm light honey color

with a tone on tone mural on the back wall of trees

inspired by the wonderful illustration by artist 

Kailey Lang of Ontario Canada.

She has such a charming website

and her work is so breathtaking!

She certainly has a bright future ahead of her!!!

The wall behind the crib will be blue with while polka dots.

I want all the bedding in the room to be white, with red gingham 

dust ruffles and pillow shams.

I can't wait to see the room all come together,

but there is a lot of work ahead of me.

I tend to be wishy washy about my style,

so I hope that this little inspiration board will keep me on track.

1. White Polka Dot on Blue (back wall of crib)

2. Warm Honey colored wall color for majority of the room

3. Log beds

 (image source) - Comfort Source - Montana Woodworks Glacier Country Bed 

4. Red Gingham Curtains

(image source) - Scotts of Stow 

5. Walt Disney, Winnie the Pooh and Tigger Too Poster

(image source) - Amazon.com

6. Red Gingham Pillows

(image source) - Lynne's This and That

7. Storage Inspiration

(image source) - Road Side Photographs 

8. Mural Inspiration

(image source) - Kailey Lang, Green Misty Forest 

9. Spring Garden Serenity Crib

(image source) - KooKoo Bear

Top image is a magazine clipping from an unknown source

I believe it's a 1970s Sears ad. 

PLEASE Keep up in your thoughts and prayers

that we are blessed with our own bundle of joy

SOON!!!