Like Magic

As many of you might recall

my blog has often been my personal diary

a safe haven to share my thoughts

with understanding friends.

I haven't opened up in quite some time

and for good reason

I am actually taking "happy pills"

I made the decision about 4 months ago

knowing that I needed to try something

before jumping into motherhood.

For as long as I can remember I've been

anxious, and overly emotional.

As excited as I was to become a foster mom

I was worried that I would get in my own way

by allowing my emotions and fears to run our household.

Honestly, I was tired of living in my shoes

I wanted the me that was happy, optimistic, and full of life

not the me that was depressed, anxious,

and to a royal pain in the butt!

I know "happy pills" aren't for everyone

but I swear they have changed my life!!

Oh sure, I still have my moments

but I'm no longer plagued by entire days

of wallowing in self pity and fear!

I hope if you are struggling

you will be brave, and try something new.

I thought that I could get better on my own

I wanted to believe I was bigger than my emotions

but those silly little pills have taught me

that somethings aren't our fault

and there is no shame in asking for help.

Nobody is perfect

We all have our issues...

but don't ever give up on yourself!

I wish there were "magic pills" to heal all our wounds

and fix all of our problems

but no matter what we have each other

and that is the only true MAGIC we need in life.

Have a lovely weekend friends!