Acceptance

Today was hard,

Acceptance, is a hard state to reach,

and I'm sure I'm not alone when I say

that it can very much be a day to day endeavor 

of both the inner spirit and the physical body.

This winter my husband and I will have been

trying to conceive a child for 4 long years.

We've dealt with many emotional, and physical 

trials, and hopefully we are on the very last leg of our journey,

but I often wonder what our path to acceptance would be like

if for instance we were born of an early generation.

Today science plays such a big role in our lives,

and I am immensely grateful for its part in my own life -

from the anxiety medications that get me smoothly through each day,

to my operation earlier this year

that may have given me a fighting chance to motherhood.

Today was hard,

I can't express truly what it's like to hand over your hopes and dreams

to a handful of "nerdy" doctors. 

You are emotional on so many levels

and to top it off your on meds that make you weepy and 

uncontrollably sensitive. 

Each day I fight to find the strength to keep positive

and excited about the upcoming events.

Most importantly I try to find the courage to 

accept that "what will be, will be".

I've not been a spiritual person in my young adult years

but I'm certainly searching now for meaning and comfort

from someplace outside of myself.

I hope you will all continue to pray for us,

your words of encouragement these last few weeks have truly lifted my spirits.

Today I may feel scared and frustrated, but tomorrow can be better.

It's a day to day struggle as I said before,

but that's what is so beautiful about the human spirit

we strive for JOY among all things.

Wallowing can only last so long, for

 ACCETANCE 

alone is the key to happiness. 

So Speaking of baby joy, look what heaven just delivered to the word.

Her name is Emily and she was very eager indeed to meet her family 

surprising mom and dad by arriving 5 weeks early.

But she's perfect and I am so very thrilled for my dear friend.

It's always such a very special treat when I get to see one of my creations

being worn by such a sweet darling angel.

This was my very first Newborn cap, and I adore it.

If I get blessed with a baby bump and it's a girl 

I will be making these none stop without question. 

Link back to Everyday is A Holiday for this weeks Art Journal lesson 

and to visit the other lovely bloggers who are most certainly on journeys of their own.