One Day At A Time

It's always a treat to have my little sister around

we weren't always so close but each year

our bond grows stronger.

I hate to admit that it's a bit of a blessing

that we don't live in the same state,

as I deal with my jealousy issues

and insecurities due to infertility.

I love my nephew to pieces.

He is just about as perfect as a little kiddo could be

but no matter how much I love him and my sister

it's hard to be around the two of them together

for long periods of time.

I'm proud of the mother my little sister has become

and the woman she is becoming

and I hope she knows how much I love them both

and that I don't wish to feel the way I do...

Hubby and I have made it through 9 hours

of our foster parent training

only 18 more to go...

we are both excited to start this new adventure in our lives,

I think my husband even more so than myself.

He's such an amazing man, and I know we will make a great team.

Our biggest concern is not difficult children

but rather my emotional well being.

We agree that taking in babies would not be a good choice for us,

so we are looking at the 3-12 year range.

I keep reminding myself to take each day as it comes

there will be days when foster care will be HARD

days when it will bring joy,

and even more that will bring tears

but overall anything worth doing is hard

and I believe when you are able to reach outside

of your own problems and help others with theirs

you start healing your own heart

and discovering you are stronger than you ever imagined

Blessing come in all shapes and sizes

and rarely in ways we expect.

my little sister wasn't prepared to be a mom

and now this little guy is her joy.

Maybe my joy is coming in some other way

and like my sister I'm scared of what's to come

but I know I can't dig myself into a whole and feel sorry for myself.

I've got to be brave and strong

and believe in myself.

I hope if you are dealing with hurt in your own life

that you are able to see that you are not alone

and that you too have the ability to overcome it

one day at a time!

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