One Day At A Time


It's always a treat to have my little sister around
we weren't always so close but each year
our bond grows stronger.
I hate to admit that it's a bit of a blessing
that we don't live in the same state,
as I deal with my jealousy issues
and insecurities due to infertility.


I love my nephew to pieces.
He is just about as perfect as a little kiddo could be
but no matter how much I love him and my sister
it's hard to be around the two of them together
for long periods of time.
I'm proud of the mother my little sister has become
and the woman she is becoming
and I hope she knows how much I love them both
and that I don't wish to feel the way I do...


Hubby and I have made it through 9 hours
of our foster parent training
only 18 more to go...
we are both excited to start this new adventure in our lives,
I think my husband even more so than myself.
He's such an amazing man, and I know we will make a great team.
Our biggest concern is not difficult children
but rather my emotional well being.
We agree that taking in babies would not be a good choice for us,
so we are looking at the 3-12 year range.


I keep reminding myself to take each day as it comes
there will be days when foster care will be HARD
days when it will bring joy,
and even more that will bring tears
but overall anything worth doing is hard
and I believe when you are able to reach outside
of your own problems and help others with theirs
you start healing your own heart
and discovering you are stronger than you ever imagined


Blessing come in all shapes and sizes
and rarely in ways we expect.
my little sister wasn't prepared to be a mom
and now this little guy is her joy.
Maybe my joy is coming in some other way
and like my sister I'm scared of what's to come
but I know I can't dig myself into a whole and feel sorry for myself.
I've got to be brave and strong
and believe in myself.


I hope if you are dealing with hurt in your own life
that you are able to see that you are not alone
and that you too have the ability to overcome it
one day at a time!

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9 comments:

Rachael said...

Hey there, Chelsea. I love your blog and I just want to say that I am unable to have kids (well, more like due to health reasons it would be an extremely irresponsible thing to do) and I hope to one day adopt. I am SO excited for you & your husband to be undergoing foster parent training. How spectacular to open your home & hearts for all of those kids in need! I can't wait to follow your adventures ~ and hopefully your example one day :)

window into our life of love, joy, and adventures! said...

Chelsea, let me tell you...you made tears pour out of my eyes today.....not because of what you may think but because you and your husband are opening not just your home but your hearts to children who are hurting for one reason or another. What a blessing to those children you two will be!
What an adventure awaits you! : )

Pink Tree Studio said...

"...when you are able to reach outside
of your own problems and help others with theirs
you start healing your own heart
and discovering you are stronger than you ever imagined..."

Chelsea Ann, you constantly surprise me by your wisdom.

Lord Mountbatten, the great uncle of Prince Charles, once told him (and I paraphrase) that the best way to cope with depression is to reach out to others.

I think that too many people, myself included, try to search for the answer in side themselves. But I know I always feel better when I get out of the house and talk to people, even it it's just at the market.

No matter how you become a Mom, you are going to do a wonderful job!!! Your nephew is lucky to have you too!

Tara said...

I feel your pain...two of my high school friends already have a child each and are both awaiting new arrivals to their familes. I find it much easier to be happy for them living three states away. I don't like feeling jealous of them, but it's so hard when they have what I would very much like to have at this point in my life. You and your husband will be a wonderful influence in the lives of the children you bring into your home. I think they will have a great impact on you as well. Wishing you the best!

Tina Liel said...

I wish you the best on your new exciting adventure. With that dear husband of yours I am sure it will be full of both happy and tough times - and it will all be worth it. I love love love your blog and your amazing products. You are just so special and a huge inspiration. And that last sentence just means the world to me especially these days♥ And I am so looking forward to you selling digital scrap kits again. HUGS and love♥

laura evans/photography said...

good luck on this exciting new journey ... having gone through my own infertility journey (& spending my life surrounded by woman who seem to manage to produce kids at an alarming rate) i understand the pain you can feel. Take care of yourself, emotionally & physically & i can see you being a wonderful parent. xx

faerie enchantment said...

Hi Chelsea,
I wish you lots of good luck vibes and warm thoughts as you embark on this new journey in your life.

I myself was the only child which held on for my mom who had 3 miscarriages, I was a little fighter and still am. One day I hope to share child experiences with friends and family either through pregnancy, adoption, etc. for now I keep the inner child in me alive so that I can continue to feel that magic.

Sending some magic your way, Happy Holidays to you!
xo
Lisa!

Creative Breathing said...

Chelsea Ann, This is such a sweet post. Your posts always reveal your heart, and it is not a jealous one. You are just not old enough yet to look back and see that these days are preparing you for your purpose in life. What an adventure you are on. What a special person needing children are going to meet. All joy wished to you and your husband this Christmas season! Elizabeth

maybe*mej said...

Thinking of you both and agree with what

Window into our life of love, joy, and adventures! said...

you and your husband are opening not just your home but your hearts to children who are hurting for one reason or another. What a blessing to those children you two will be! ...

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