we weren't always so close but each year
our bond grows stronger.
I hate to admit that it's a bit of a blessing
that we don't live in the same state,
as I deal with my jealousy issues
and insecurities due to infertility.
I love my nephew to pieces.
He is just about as perfect as a little kiddo could be
but no matter how much I love him and my sister
it's hard to be around the two of them together
for long periods of time.
I'm proud of the mother my little sister has become
and the woman she is becoming
and I hope she knows how much I love them both
and that I don't wish to feel the way I do...
Hubby and I have made it through 9 hours
of our foster parent training
only 18 more to go...
we are both excited to start this new adventure in our lives,
I think my husband even more so than myself.
He's such an amazing man, and I know we will make a great team.
Our biggest concern is not difficult children
but rather my emotional well being.
We agree that taking in babies would not be a good choice for us,
so we are looking at the 3-12 year range.
I keep reminding myself to take each day as it comes
there will be days when foster care will be HARD
days when it will bring joy,
and even more that will bring tears
but overall anything worth doing is hard
and I believe when you are able to reach outside
of your own problems and help others with theirs
you start healing your own heart
and discovering you are stronger than you ever imagined
Blessing come in all shapes and sizes
and rarely in ways we expect.
my little sister wasn't prepared to be a mom
and now this little guy is her joy.
Maybe my joy is coming in some other way
and like my sister I'm scared of what's to come
but I know I can't dig myself into a whole and feel sorry for myself.
I've got to be brave and strong
and believe in myself.
I hope if you are dealing with hurt in your own life
that you are able to see that you are not alone
and that you too have the ability to overcome it
one day at a time!
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