Don't Cry

 Today I received two packages in the mail and had one more to pick up on my way to work.
Each package was filled with lovely items
The first two were things I had ordered, which I will share with you soon
The second package which I picked up at the post office was from my dearest friend Elizabeth.
I waited to open it up until I was safely parked in the parking garage and had just a few moments to spare before my work day started.
I gasped in shear wonderment at the beautiful and intricate pin cushion made specially for me
How could such a thing exists?
So perfect, so sweet, so ME!
The craftsmanship can not be put into words. 
This treasure is magical!

What is truly magic is the message.
The first ever item Elizabeth sent me said 
"tie a bow"
it was a special message just for me!
It signified many a conversation Elizabeth and I 
had in the first months of getting to know one another. 
I was meant to encourage me to pursue my dreams.

This new message
"don't cry"
is where the real magic in my gift lyes. 
For the last few months I have been a roller coaster of emotions.
I go up up up and then down down down
Each morning I seem to wake up in a totally different state of mind.
I brush it off as hormones or suppressed issues from my childhood
But what is most upsetting is when I seem to spiral out of control in a mere instant.
Like a switch being flipped on, I'm crying

This is not the person I want to be.
I want to be the person I portray in my pictures 
The happy go lucky girl with a big bright smile on her face 
and an optimistic look on life

I've gotten on some vitamin D3 in hopes that will help with my lack of sun blues
But I think what I really need is somebody to talk to.
It's nice to get things off your chest... 
But also I just need to make a more conscious decision to



Christy said...

Delightfully cute! It is so YOU!

PamKittyMorning said...

Sometimes the milk seems much more important than it really is. I know too.

The pink cushion is wonderful, you and Elizabeth are too creative women. Love both the blogs.

Lyn said...

This is amazing. I love Elizabeth's work - she does amazing things! And what a thoughtful message too =)

Sandy Michelle said...

I hope things look up for you soon Honey pie! I am going through the same thing. It's frustrating because you don't want to feel down when you do. It's great that you're taking vitamin D though!

I can't wait to see your Marie A. collage! I just finished mine and will post it soon!

I love Elizabeth's pin cushions!!

Sandy xox

Karin said...

This post really spoke to me - I've been feeling the same way for quite a while! I love the "don't cry" messages, perhaps I should craft something similar for myself!

~ ~ Ahrisha ~ ~ said...

Chelsea Ann~ ~ ~Please take a good mineral supplement also it may help you. If you need help with that please contact me. Your not alone there are many gals with hormone issues but there is help.
~ ~Ahrisha~ ~

Bethany Hissong said...

You've had a lot of changes in your life lately... it's hard sometimes to deal with all of it. Find friends to be with regularly. I find it hard sometimes to be at home and keep my spirits up. And also know that no one is happy all of the time. When I felt like you, I spoke with my doctor and she was a big help! Now I have better days. Everything always works out!!! Call me if you ever need to talk to someone... and I'm sending a hug!!!

Chelsea Ling said...


I can relate! Life just SUCKS sometimes - but the hard parts make us who we are and we can learn from every situation. What you said about making a conscious decision is really true.. because your thoughts are all controlled by you... it's like breaking a bad habit.

Keep me in mind if you ever need to talk, I am a good listener and have struggled with the same thing!


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