Today I received two packages in the mail and had one more to pick up on my way to work.
Each package was filled with lovely items
The first two were things I had ordered, which I will share with you soon
The second package which I picked up at the post office was from my dearest friend Elizabeth.
I waited to open it up until I was safely parked in the parking garage and had just a few moments to spare before my work day started.
I gasped in shear wonderment at the beautiful and intricate pin cushion made specially for me
How could such a thing exists?
So perfect, so sweet, so ME!
The craftsmanship can not be put into words.
This treasure is magical!
What is truly magic is the message.
The first ever item Elizabeth sent me said
"tie a bow"
it was a special message just for me!
It signified many a conversation Elizabeth and I
had in the first months of getting to know one another.
I was meant to encourage me to pursue my dreams.
This new message
is where the real magic in my gift lyes.
For the last few months I have been a roller coaster of emotions.
I go up up up and then down down down
Each morning I seem to wake up in a totally different state of mind.
I brush it off as hormones or suppressed issues from my childhood
But what is most upsetting is when I seem to spiral out of control in a mere instant.
Like a switch being flipped on, I'm crying
This is not the person I want to be.
I want to be the person I portray in my pictures
The happy go lucky girl with a big bright smile on her face
and an optimistic look on life
I've gotten on some vitamin D3 in hopes that will help with my lack of sun blues
But I think what I really need is somebody to talk to.
It's nice to get things off your chest...
But also I just need to make a more conscious decision to
CRY OVER SPILT MILK!